july 30, 2002
low five - sneaker pimps

it takes too much to please me that nothing comes to mind...i borrow lines from a song...
i'm getting tired of defending my socially inept self to the shallow. i have lost my faith on depth. everyone has become superficial, im scared to leave my bed every morning. the real world is beyond redemption, i have to chain myself to the posters of my bed to keep sane. i can't believe i have fallen in love with the unexpected. or maybe i have started to march with the rest, and fooled myself to be in love. how can i think that oscar and i will get together again, sometime? the idea is prepostorous, but then again, i am prepostorous. i can't believe in faith but i do. how can i be destined to be with him? that's just cruel. thank goddess, i am just delusional at the moment :)
i miss him though, specially what could have been... aaaahhh... more making out sessions??? Dang!!!